Its been awhile since I've done a journal. I've been working at a Shell station which sells gas and random assortament of goods along with handmade sandwiches and grease cooked premade hot food. I'm happy to finally have a job and money weekly to pay for my computer but oy sometimes I think I have to do way too much. My main responsiblities are guarding the store and watching the gas pumps my others are Making the sandwitches 6 of each kind, that's 27 sandwiches. Roast beef is the nastiest. I don't know how people can eat that stuff. Now the boss decided its better to have ham in the bulk size and has to be chopped up on the slicer manually. It used to be only the pepperjack needed slicing...Grr I wish he'd lose that idea and resume ordering presliced Ham. I also have to amke sure the Soda Fountain has full ice in it. We have a lame Vault display that holds ice and holds the bottles...its pointless cause we also have it int he freezer so not many even grab it out of the display. I forgot to mention the store has a drive thru so I can end up with someone at the drivethru another at the counter someone wanting to pump gas outside and the phone ringing. A hectic situation. Also have to keep the lids, straws and other commidations stocked, clean the bathrooms, sweep the floor, vacuum the rugs, wipe the counters, clean the 2 capiccino machines, make coffee, empty the coffee, Empty and clean the hot box, mops the floors, close the register, bar the drivethru window, lock the doors, set the alarm get my stuff and leave locking the doors and leaving. That's just the normal routine every day....luckily I don't have to keep making sandwiches. Then there's dealing with customers of all kinds. Soem want to know where the beer is, We don't sell it and I don't drink so I tell them I have no idea, then there's the ones that don't know how to work the creditcard machine and mess it up gettign angry at me thinking its my fault. Or if just getting gas they expect instant approval but sometimes I can't approve right away cause I'm in the middle of a transaction. They stupidly think it helps to keep hitting the buttons or stare at it...yeah that helps as much as constantly hitting the button for an elevator. Anyways am I just being selfish or is this too much?

On another note well sorta cause it did happen at work. I was answering the drive-thru as a new red mustang pulled up and I couldn't believe who it was... It was my first crush from high school. I was shocked to see her. She just wanted her change changed to 3 quarters. I bumped my head on the inner ceiling and wasn't thinking clearly. After she drove off my heartbeat was racing and I felt very light headed. I had to take a knee and stop moving for a while regaining my breath...I felt so pathetic. I never expected that and was surprised to find my reaction to be so extreme. Guess your first love never dies.